Saturday, January 10, 2009

HAPPY NEW YEAR

WOW. It's like going to a place that you've moved out of. Going to the street you grew up on. Well maybe not that intense but it sure has been a long time since I've actually visited my own blog.

I have so much going on. I've moved, in with the boyfriend, one year now....hehe, and they said it wouldn't last. Actually I was sure that I'd never make a year of living in what begins as someone elses home. But his generous heart has helped (even though I am still usurping my share of the closet).

Then there is the job. Being the administrator of a health care establishment has its trials. I work all the time. Late at night, early in the morning, the weekends. It's my responsibility and it has to run well. A clinic that came to me wrought with problems, it is still in the throws of evolving into something great. I have faith even though it sometimes fails me.

In two weeks we leave for a respite in Costa Rica. Did you hear there was an earthquake there? Not that close to where we are staying but close to where we planned to visit. I am surprised.

However, I've lived not far from the Ramapo Fault in NJ. I remember the earthquake in 1979. I remember wondering why it sounded like a train when there was no train near. I will be listening closely and hoping not to hear the same sound. I just wanted a little relaxing time. Blue skies, waters, maybe some horny sea turtles entwined while floating aimlessly (that's what I saw on my last visit), and some good food and wine.

We'll see.

Labels: costa rica, new year, relax, vacation, work

Thursday, November 01, 2007

Acceptance

With an offer of a good salary and true interest in my contribution to the company, there comes a feeling of acceptance.

It seems like a long wait. I still have other interests and wonder if any of them will come through. I'm not sure if this would have been my first choice had it not now seemed to be my only choice.

I am considering taking a job that mirrors the one I left. Will my experiences, the negative ones, be the same? This is again a place wrought with problems. Will those problems once again beat me down or do I have the strength this time. Have I learned? Can I make it better?

I am not certain and this will require me to do some honest soul searching. Even if I have learned, can I apply those learnings, or is it true that an old dog can't learn new tricks?

Stand up and fight, Fido.

Labels: acceptance, job, rejection, work

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Rejection

I shouldn't complain. In fact, shut me up. Many people would love some time away from work but I have to say I'm bored.

It might be different if I had an unlimited amount of money with which to shop. Or a project that I need to tend to. Or maybe if this was the beginning of the summer and I could spend my time outdoors. But right now none of those are options and I don't want to begin any projects when I do hope that a new job is just around the corner.

I've been working since I was 15. It's what I know. It's how I fill my day. It's what interests me and gives me purpose. And I just don't have the time (or the money) to find another purpose.

I have asked him to quit his job and travel around the world with me. Darn, rejected again.

Labels: mood, rejection, travel, work

Thursday, October 18, 2007

Cheers (again)

A job interview yesterday for another familiar company, one that I spent 21 years working for and never should have left. Probably the most promising. How great it was walking through the corridors and seeing all of the familiar faces.

But the one that I really want eludes me.

Labels: cheers, culture, job, work

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Cheers

Job interview today. Looking into something I once walked away from, and I'm not certain that it's not going from the frying pan......but we will see. Perhaps I won't be considered, but at least it was somewhere where I knew most of the folks and they are supportive and friendly. It's good to go where everybody knows your name and there is no Kool Aid to drink.

That was always the inference at the previous company. Because you had to become a part of the culture to a fault. I'm not certain what the culture was though. My boss's culture was to play any side of the fence that made her look good.

I think that when you work for a company you should buy into its culture, but not to the extent that you have to compromise your values or to the extent that the culture is the only way. Without the ability to develop new methods and think outside of the culture there is no improvement.

Probably just the reason that the same problems exist today.

Labels: cheers, culture, job, kool aid, work